A Well Planned Death

As I am walking with the awareness of my plan to die in November 2013, various situations in my life take on new significance. Like my friend Wren.

Wren has lived in Shasta, CA for several years. The past January she decided that she was ready to move to Tuscon, AZ. As she made her plans for the move, she told me that she wanted to come for a visit me on her "way". Let's see. Wren is in Shasta, CA. I live in the Seattle, WA area. Her final destination is Tuscon, AZ. She wants to visit me on her "way" to Tuscon? Do you see my puzzlement?

Well, I knew that I would certainly enjoy spending time with her anytime and so I was glad to say yes!

It was during our time on Whidbey Island, time we had to talk, to contemplate, to cook together and to rest that I saw her visit from the "death" plan.  In the "death scenario, if she had gone directly to Tuscon, she and I would not have had a "last time" together. In that possibility, this visit would have been a perfect "ending" to our friendship.

I am amazed at the consideration that went into my life plan, and I am sure into yours. We are not here by chance, by accident, without purpose until we make it up. Because of that, I am staying very vigilant with my inner feelings, spiritual signals and power of my "in the now" command.

I have gone through the alert stage, the first ultrasound that discovered abnormalities in the thyroid, the medical visits, more extensive ultrasounds, and biopsies. The results of which are in.... no cancer within a 10% or less margin of error in the thyroid and nothing in the lymph.

Jumping ahead, my doctor who is very thorough, wanted a CT scan on the entire head and neck area. That has been done and all is well!

So, the projectory toward a death in November has changed dramatically.

The stage I am in now is working with my spiritual teams, designing a life beyond what was the end. I am sensing the "void", the "slow-down", the "completion" feelings that were part of the first plan as well of the growing excitement for the new.

Am I thrilled for the previous 30 years of working with spiritual healers and guides who have shown me how to see below the surface, into the shadows, past the minimal answers to discover the true "cause" of situations? I could have taken the standard line that the warning was just about me getting on a more "true" path. NOT!

We are so much more powerful and central to our lives than we have remembered!

Grateful for Unlimited Possibilities!

And Then, This Happened...

I cannot believe that it is already May 13! Once a few unexpected medical visits are added to one's calendar, other things, like keeping up with this blog, are crowded out.

The last time I wrote, I was on my way to have a full ultrasound on my thyroid and surrounding lymph glands. Thankfully, all of the processes so far were rather painless. Never the less, my daughters are now mothering me through this journey. They are taking turns sitting with me, either in the medical office or in the waiting room.

Just so you know, much of what I am now writing is a catch-up, like telling the story after the fact. Oh well...

The thyroid ultrasound showed some problematic nodes on the thyroid and in the lymph system. "Next step, " said my medical doctor, "is to have biopsies done on both thyroid and lymph." I agreed. This journey is not about preventing the use of Western medicine. This journey is about not ending my life in November. If more tests are needed to determine the steps the Western medical training would recommend, more tests it is.

I was told to come prepared to be there for two hours. "Will I need someone to drive me home?" I asked. That would not be necessary I was assured.

Nevertheless, with my daughter, Michelle, by my side, I went for my biopsy. She went into the waiting room and I went into the "lay-down and let us carefully poke your neck" room.

This is not my actual biopsy picture.....

Two hours later we were on our way home to wait for the results to be sent to my lymph doctor. By now in addition to my regular medical doctor I have two specialist: Endocrine doctor whom I have not met and Ear, Nose, Throat (lymph) doctor who is directing the show.

As I move forward with the Western pieces, I continue to use my zeolite product, my brown seaweed product, an anti-biotic for a mild sinus infection, Benoite clay packs on the right neck area, Vitamin C and lots of good water. I am in regular communication with my Spiritual team who are fully on board with my new choice to live without an end date. With this new choice, they can notify me with any thing that unbalances my systems, triggers old death energies and keep a vigil on those unseen fields that are the foundations for what becomes physical.  I am feeling really quite good.

My friend Wren is coming to visit me in Seattle on her "way" to a new home in Tuscon, AZ. Does that sound strange? Well, it will not seem so after I share the next installment of my saga along with the results of the biopsies.