And Then, This Happened...

I cannot believe that it is already May 13! Once a few unexpected medical visits are added to one's calendar, other things, like keeping up with this blog, are crowded out.

The last time I wrote, I was on my way to have a full ultrasound on my thyroid and surrounding lymph glands. Thankfully, all of the processes so far were rather painless. Never the less, my daughters are now mothering me through this journey. They are taking turns sitting with me, either in the medical office or in the waiting room.

Just so you know, much of what I am now writing is a catch-up, like telling the story after the fact. Oh well...

The thyroid ultrasound showed some problematic nodes on the thyroid and in the lymph system. "Next step, " said my medical doctor, "is to have biopsies done on both thyroid and lymph." I agreed. This journey is not about preventing the use of Western medicine. This journey is about not ending my life in November. If more tests are needed to determine the steps the Western medical training would recommend, more tests it is.

I was told to come prepared to be there for two hours. "Will I need someone to drive me home?" I asked. That would not be necessary I was assured.

Nevertheless, with my daughter, Michelle, by my side, I went for my biopsy. She went into the waiting room and I went into the "lay-down and let us carefully poke your neck" room.

This is not my actual biopsy picture.....

Two hours later we were on our way home to wait for the results to be sent to my lymph doctor. By now in addition to my regular medical doctor I have two specialist: Endocrine doctor whom I have not met and Ear, Nose, Throat (lymph) doctor who is directing the show.

As I move forward with the Western pieces, I continue to use my zeolite product, my brown seaweed product, an anti-biotic for a mild sinus infection, Benoite clay packs on the right neck area, Vitamin C and lots of good water. I am in regular communication with my Spiritual team who are fully on board with my new choice to live without an end date. With this new choice, they can notify me with any thing that unbalances my systems, triggers old death energies and keep a vigil on those unseen fields that are the foundations for what becomes physical.  I am feeling really quite good.

My friend Wren is coming to visit me in Seattle on her "way" to a new home in Tuscon, AZ. Does that sound strange? Well, it will not seem so after I share the next installment of my saga along with the results of the biopsies.

Cancer as Part of Healing Team

There are some bits of information that are not helpful for a medical doctor. Telling him that you just found out that you had included the time for your death in your pre-life plans and that date was six months away, is probably something that will cause his eyes to glaze over.

So, in my appointment with my regular medical physician, I simply brought him the findings from my carotid artery ultrasound with the comment that something irregular was going on in my thyroid. I figured that he would take it from there.

First, he was puzzled.

"Why did you have an ultrasound for the caroitid?"

"Because my Chinese doctor suggested we check out that part of the circulatory system." What I did not way was that Dr. Wang believes in prevention in anyway that will do no harm,

He asked if I had any thyroid symptom.

"Well," I replied, "just the strange throat and upper bronchial sensations that we had concluded were allergy related."

He filled a cup with water and had me drink as he felt the thyroid. Nothing "wrong" that he could detect and yet clearly the ultrasound showed nodules that ought not to be there.

Next, blood tests to see if there were any indications of thyroid abnormalities from that test. No. Nothing showed up.

"Well, the next step," he said, "is to go to some specialists; one for the thyroid and one for the lymph which may be involved."

Oh, did I mention. One member of my family died from thyroid cancer and another had to have her thyroid removed because of cancer.

With the two appointments set, I went home to resume my regime of zeolite, brown seaweed and clay packs. And, of course, conversations with my spiritual, healing team. My goal is not to prevent testing or surgery. My goal is to prevent my death in November 2013. Whatever it takes.

Because I respected cancer and death as forms responding to my own plan, I began to have conversations with them.  What was the message that cancer had for me? What was the job that I had given death? What in my energy fields will  prevent their release? What in any of my bodies (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) needs more attention in order to let go of my original plan?

This is a model very close to my belief... integrated and inclusive

As I shared with a few friends who do healing work, the suggestion was made that I gather all of my strength and resources to "fight" cancer.

That did not fit my model of this world. My approach was that I had always been in charge. Death had been my choice at some point and was therefore not my "enemy". In conversations with cancer and death I valued their insight, awareness and contribution. We were on the same side. The side of causing my soul growth and accomplishing my soul's plan. They became valuable members of my team.

The first specialist, the lymph doctor- Eyes, Ears, Nose and Throat, rushed me into an appointment for a full ultrasound on my thyroid and lymph.

Let's see what shows up with this full on look.

Saying No To Death... Now What?

I had paid attention to the information from my daughter. I had checked out the validity of the information with my own Spiritual team and found it accurate. I had made the choice to change the death that I had evidently planned for myself. Now what?


Now... I went on with my activities with the underlying command, "I am living a long, healthy, meaningful life in this body suit on this planet."  Yes, a command. I have moved very far along the choice line from , "God gives me life situations and my responsibility is to do the best I can with them" to "I pray and hopefully god is out there to listen" to "God who?" to "I can change my life by changing my thoughts.... sometimes" to "I can have input into my life" to "I am the commander of my life within the greater web of energy response that holds all of us." That may make sense to some and no sense at all to others. For me, it is a very powerful stand in which no one and no thing is a more impact in my life than me. And, it is not about control of all things.

But I digress...

As I have said, I made an appoint to see Dr. Wang. By then, I had decided to ask about the heaviness I sometimes felt in my bronchial area and my shortness of breath when I did a bit of strenuous walking such as going up stairs. I had told my medical doctor over the past 3-4 years and he could find nothing wrong. Even the clinic training naturopaths offered no solutions. He took all of the pulses, listened to my, heart, lungs and bronchial area. He asked about family history, checked more and said with a rather heavy Chinese accent, "Heart good, lungs clear". Then he used a words I had never heard in my medical experience, "prevention" and "do no harm." I almost laughed.

He suggested that I could get an ultrasound of the carotid arteries that run on either side of the neck to take blood to the brain. There was no indication of problem, just as a baseline of that part of my circulatory system. Sounded good to me.

So the next day I am laying on a table having the ultra sound. The technician asks about my thyroid. Did I have hypo or hyper activity? "No," I replied. "Why?"

"Well," there are some abnormalities there, especially in the right thyroid. Because the carotids are next to the thyroid, we often catch problems that would otherwise go undetected. She even let the "c" word slip out. "I grew up in the downwind area of the nuclear testing.... one type of radiation is stored in the thyroid," I said as she knowingly nodded her head. "I will make a note of this on the report to your doctor," she said.


As I left the building, I asked my Spiritual team, "So, was this the way I would have had my life end?" "Yes," they replied. "And you could not have warned me because it was an expression of my plan to die?" "That is correct. Until you changed your plan, we had to honor your original word that you would be leaving this body this year. The way your end came would not have been a mistake, the result of negative thinking, because an external "god" wanted you home, or because you were finished with what you wanted to do. Some lives do end earlier than they had originally planned. That is not the case with you. Your death this year would have been the result of the plan you had made before coming into the body suit."

"Once you had made a new choice, worked to change the underlying energy fields, and commanded a different outcome, we had permission, indeed requirement, to show you the components that were building to end your life. The "brain glitches" were message givers. We trusted that you would ask us about them and then we could get you to Dr. Wang who would get you to the ultrasound. Even the technician played her part. How many technician tell you anything about what they are seeing? Her friend had been saved from thyroid cancer because of a similar chance ultrasound. The words just slipped out."

"Well, now I know what to do," I said.

I went home and began taking a cleansing level of zeolite and a healing amount of brown seaweed. Both used to remove radiation and to prevent cancer. And I created quiet space to begin conversations with the thyroid energy and a body design team in spirit. I totally know that the woo-woo work of the unseen lays and changes the foundations from which the physical manifests. I had more work to do.... and my children to tell.

A Woman Stands and the Worlds Re-Arrange...

A journey with Death....

Late February, 2013
A daughter has informed me that through her own personal spiritual guidance that my life would be ending soon and that she and the family needed to get prepared.

I am shocked. I have spent the past three weeks evaluating the condition of my body, my mind, my memory, my energy level and they have all passed with flying colors. I have been telling everyone that in every way, my physical body and mind are better at 71 and 1/2 years old than 10 years ago.

So... off I go to my Spiritual team. "Is this information true?" I ask.

"Oh yes," comes back the answer.

"Well," I reply, "death is not going to happen! My life, my body, my choice!"
This woman took a strong stand for herself!

You see, I was raised in a religious culture that used god to answer all of the difficult questions.
"Why did my dad die?"
                       "God needed his help."
"Why is my brother so sick?"
                       "God is testing him."
"Why does Grandpa act so mean?"
                       "Because God is waiting for  him to learn obedience." And on and on and on...

Well, I am no longer a child. I no longer buy the "god" thing. Over the years, I have developed my own credo, my own value system. It is based on personal experience by working with the concepts, the laws that say,

• "Ask and you shall receive."
• "As a man thinketh, so is he."
• "In the beginning was the Word.... my word."

I was ready to say NO to Death in a very big way.

For three days I applied all of the spiritual guidance, information, healing, transformation, and healing processes that I knew. Along the way I would ask, "Is the death plan gone?"

I continued the work until the answer from my Spiritual team came back, "yes".

That was the first phase of this journey that I didn't know would open up to me now.

What will happen next? Learning I am sure.

I'll share and take you with me on this walk from Death. Doors will have to be opened as I choose the possibility of a greater expression of Life in this physical body suit.

Blessings,