Power in Choice

Choices Are Made for Birth and for Death

With deep integrity, Beings of Spirit, no matter how much they want to assist to end suffering, will not step in and direct our show. They will wait for the command/degree from those in physical bodies. We ask, they assist in the doing. We ask, and they assist in whispering the steps. We ask from a soul shift and our command moves the mountains in our lives.


That flies in the face of many personal growth, metaphysical, new age concepts that give the impression that the highest consciousness is to have Universe, Source, Greater Power tell you what is best. We have limited view, you see. Not! The power of choice, command, decree rests with those in physical body suits... you and I!

I am also very fortunate in that I have had 30 years of experience in asking questions directly to an amazing team of Spiritual teachers in the unseen. I have asked in other's behalf such questions as, "Is this situation manifesting because of inherited concepts, contracts, personal choice, mistaken ideas, etc.?" I was able to ask them, "Does my original plan contain my death this year?" I am finding that there are those who assume why a situation is manifesting. They read another's ideas or experience and take that as their answers. For example, I have two friends both with life threatening cancer diagnosis. As I asked their Higher Selves the reason for the disease, the answer for my first friend was that she had not planned to die at this time and yet she had made a powerful choice to "leave this #!@ planet" because of the deep pain during a relationship breakup. That choice had begun a disease to manifest this wish. When I tried to tell her with the suggestion that she could release the command and do the work to stop the disease, she discounted the information. She was sure that it was only a message from the Universe that she needed to slow down and rest. 

My second friend asked for my help also. When I checked with her Higher Self, I was told that she had planned that her life would end soon. Cancer was the manifestation of that original plan. And, like me, she was not ready. She listened, understood, made a new choice and is doing the integrated work to re-frame her life. 

I was so glad that I clearly understood the law, "Ask and ye shall receive" and had the experience to know what and how to ask. Otherwise, when my daughter gave me the information contained in my original plan, I would have bowed to death as the will of Source, who knows best for my life. I would have gotten my affairs in order.

I have great respect for the intelligence, creativity, vision and generosity of each of my Soul family members. As the spiritual aspect of this physical expression of me, my Soul- like yours- is magnificent beyond our ability to comprehend. I am getting a taste of how carefully we lay plans before we step into a physical body suit. I also know the immense changes that have come about during the last 13 years. Deep shifts that have made what had been impossible, possible. Although my Soul thought I would be ready to leave this year, my conscious self says, "No". That choice is the final say. Fortunately, my physical body had not been impacted by the pending disease to the point where the body could not turn around.

So here I am. A new grandma compressing herself in many ways, including packing boxes for storage in order to be ready for a new home in the fall. Compressing, resting and then choosing that the "explosion" of my own new birth will contain all of the magnificence of our Divine nature.
All is well!

A Well Planned Death

As I am walking with the awareness of my plan to die in November 2013, various situations in my life take on new significance. Like my friend Wren.

Wren has lived in Shasta, CA for several years. The past January she decided that she was ready to move to Tuscon, AZ. As she made her plans for the move, she told me that she wanted to come for a visit me on her "way". Let's see. Wren is in Shasta, CA. I live in the Seattle, WA area. Her final destination is Tuscon, AZ. She wants to visit me on her "way" to Tuscon? Do you see my puzzlement?

Well, I knew that I would certainly enjoy spending time with her anytime and so I was glad to say yes!

It was during our time on Whidbey Island, time we had to talk, to contemplate, to cook together and to rest that I saw her visit from the "death" plan.  In the "death scenario, if she had gone directly to Tuscon, she and I would not have had a "last time" together. In that possibility, this visit would have been a perfect "ending" to our friendship.

I am amazed at the consideration that went into my life plan, and I am sure into yours. We are not here by chance, by accident, without purpose until we make it up. Because of that, I am staying very vigilant with my inner feelings, spiritual signals and power of my "in the now" command.

I have gone through the alert stage, the first ultrasound that discovered abnormalities in the thyroid, the medical visits, more extensive ultrasounds, and biopsies. The results of which are in.... no cancer within a 10% or less margin of error in the thyroid and nothing in the lymph.

Jumping ahead, my doctor who is very thorough, wanted a CT scan on the entire head and neck area. That has been done and all is well!

So, the projectory toward a death in November has changed dramatically.

The stage I am in now is working with my spiritual teams, designing a life beyond what was the end. I am sensing the "void", the "slow-down", the "completion" feelings that were part of the first plan as well of the growing excitement for the new.

Am I thrilled for the previous 30 years of working with spiritual healers and guides who have shown me how to see below the surface, into the shadows, past the minimal answers to discover the true "cause" of situations? I could have taken the standard line that the warning was just about me getting on a more "true" path. NOT!

We are so much more powerful and central to our lives than we have remembered!

Grateful for Unlimited Possibilities!

Cancer as Part of Healing Team

There are some bits of information that are not helpful for a medical doctor. Telling him that you just found out that you had included the time for your death in your pre-life plans and that date was six months away, is probably something that will cause his eyes to glaze over.

So, in my appointment with my regular medical physician, I simply brought him the findings from my carotid artery ultrasound with the comment that something irregular was going on in my thyroid. I figured that he would take it from there.

First, he was puzzled.

"Why did you have an ultrasound for the caroitid?"

"Because my Chinese doctor suggested we check out that part of the circulatory system." What I did not way was that Dr. Wang believes in prevention in anyway that will do no harm,

He asked if I had any thyroid symptom.

"Well," I replied, "just the strange throat and upper bronchial sensations that we had concluded were allergy related."

He filled a cup with water and had me drink as he felt the thyroid. Nothing "wrong" that he could detect and yet clearly the ultrasound showed nodules that ought not to be there.

Next, blood tests to see if there were any indications of thyroid abnormalities from that test. No. Nothing showed up.

"Well, the next step," he said, "is to go to some specialists; one for the thyroid and one for the lymph which may be involved."

Oh, did I mention. One member of my family died from thyroid cancer and another had to have her thyroid removed because of cancer.

With the two appointments set, I went home to resume my regime of zeolite, brown seaweed and clay packs. And, of course, conversations with my spiritual, healing team. My goal is not to prevent testing or surgery. My goal is to prevent my death in November 2013. Whatever it takes.

Because I respected cancer and death as forms responding to my own plan, I began to have conversations with them.  What was the message that cancer had for me? What was the job that I had given death? What in my energy fields will  prevent their release? What in any of my bodies (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) needs more attention in order to let go of my original plan?

This is a model very close to my belief... integrated and inclusive

As I shared with a few friends who do healing work, the suggestion was made that I gather all of my strength and resources to "fight" cancer.

That did not fit my model of this world. My approach was that I had always been in charge. Death had been my choice at some point and was therefore not my "enemy". In conversations with cancer and death I valued their insight, awareness and contribution. We were on the same side. The side of causing my soul growth and accomplishing my soul's plan. They became valuable members of my team.

The first specialist, the lymph doctor- Eyes, Ears, Nose and Throat, rushed me into an appointment for a full ultrasound on my thyroid and lymph.

Let's see what shows up with this full on look.