Cancer as Part of Healing Team

There are some bits of information that are not helpful for a medical doctor. Telling him that you just found out that you had included the time for your death in your pre-life plans and that date was six months away, is probably something that will cause his eyes to glaze over.

So, in my appointment with my regular medical physician, I simply brought him the findings from my carotid artery ultrasound with the comment that something irregular was going on in my thyroid. I figured that he would take it from there.

First, he was puzzled.

"Why did you have an ultrasound for the caroitid?"

"Because my Chinese doctor suggested we check out that part of the circulatory system." What I did not way was that Dr. Wang believes in prevention in anyway that will do no harm,

He asked if I had any thyroid symptom.

"Well," I replied, "just the strange throat and upper bronchial sensations that we had concluded were allergy related."

He filled a cup with water and had me drink as he felt the thyroid. Nothing "wrong" that he could detect and yet clearly the ultrasound showed nodules that ought not to be there.

Next, blood tests to see if there were any indications of thyroid abnormalities from that test. No. Nothing showed up.

"Well, the next step," he said, "is to go to some specialists; one for the thyroid and one for the lymph which may be involved."

Oh, did I mention. One member of my family died from thyroid cancer and another had to have her thyroid removed because of cancer.

With the two appointments set, I went home to resume my regime of zeolite, brown seaweed and clay packs. And, of course, conversations with my spiritual, healing team. My goal is not to prevent testing or surgery. My goal is to prevent my death in November 2013. Whatever it takes.

Because I respected cancer and death as forms responding to my own plan, I began to have conversations with them.  What was the message that cancer had for me? What was the job that I had given death? What in my energy fields will  prevent their release? What in any of my bodies (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) needs more attention in order to let go of my original plan?

This is a model very close to my belief... integrated and inclusive

As I shared with a few friends who do healing work, the suggestion was made that I gather all of my strength and resources to "fight" cancer.

That did not fit my model of this world. My approach was that I had always been in charge. Death had been my choice at some point and was therefore not my "enemy". In conversations with cancer and death I valued their insight, awareness and contribution. We were on the same side. The side of causing my soul growth and accomplishing my soul's plan. They became valuable members of my team.

The first specialist, the lymph doctor- Eyes, Ears, Nose and Throat, rushed me into an appointment for a full ultrasound on my thyroid and lymph.

Let's see what shows up with this full on look.

Death and Spiritual Choices

Some might wonder about getting the information about pending "death" from some Spiritual Guides. I will tell you. Someone who knows that we are multi-dimensional beings. Someone who knows that we all exist in unseen fields of energy. Someone who understands that the "web of life" is not a word picture but words for what is truth. Someone who understands that the unseen fields of energy become/influence that tactile fields of energy of touch, taste, feel, see, hear that most call the "real" world.

Like Einstein suggested and has been proven, when you take matter/physical and speed up the components/atoms/quanta, it becomes energy/unseen or spiritual.

Because those of us who work within the energy fields/dimensions beyond the 1, 2 and 3 of what our physical sensing system can discern, dis-ease or other problems can be identified and therefore "healed" or changed.

Our innate abilities to work within all of the various fields of our live, Spiritual, Emotional, Mental and Physical has been "hidden in the shadows". The shadows of fear, of torture, of dis-counting, of domination, of over 300 years of witch hunts and burning times was enough to force us into obedience to outside voices.

Fortunately for me, I was called and trained as a radical mystic and so for over 30 years have been taught to re-member. With all of those years and experience under my belt, the first place to go with the news of my planned "death" was to my proven Spiritual team.

My ability is ask questions within sacred, protected space and to get accurate answers. So, this was the time ask.... Death? Why? When? What does that mean? Do I have any choice in this end result?

And so I took the time to be in quiet, sacred space to ask and listen. This is what I discovered about what was held in the energy fields beyond physical. I am sharing how this fits within my own personal belief structure of how life is designed.

1. In the plan that I made for my life with the advisers who worked with me as a "soul" before I was birthed into this body suit and this lifetime, I had placed the exit time for this year... my 72nd year.
2. The date was to be late November of 2013.
3. Yes, I did have the right, authority and power to override that exit date. (which is what I had done even before I spent time to understand this more clearly.)

Within 2 weeks of having set a new staff in the ground to say, "No! I am not going to leave this body, this life, this family, these friends, these projects, this adventure", I had two brain glitches. The happened a day apart from each other.

1. I was teaching a class. I went to say and word and my mouth would not make the shape for the word to happen. It took about three tries until the shape of my mouth was correct. Troubling.
2. The next day I was talking to another business on the phone. They asked for my address. My mind could not sort out is the number sequence was 345 or 543... I had to read the address off of an envelope. More troubling...

I immediately went to my Spiritual team and asked, "Is there some neurological problem that I need to be aware of?"

"No," they answered. "And make an appointment to see Dr. Wang."

Dr Wang is a Chinese medical doctor who was trained in China using long acupuncture needles for the brain. He worked with individuals who had suffered a stroke and had worked on my daughter Carolyn after her car accident. I thought that perhaps he would be able to "trigger on" whatever my brain may have been stuck with.

How wrong I was! I learned, again, that we usually do not know ahead of time the "whys" of life. 

A Woman Stands and the Worlds Re-Arrange...

A journey with Death....

Late February, 2013
A daughter has informed me that through her own personal spiritual guidance that my life would be ending soon and that she and the family needed to get prepared.

I am shocked. I have spent the past three weeks evaluating the condition of my body, my mind, my memory, my energy level and they have all passed with flying colors. I have been telling everyone that in every way, my physical body and mind are better at 71 and 1/2 years old than 10 years ago.

So... off I go to my Spiritual team. "Is this information true?" I ask.

"Oh yes," comes back the answer.

"Well," I reply, "death is not going to happen! My life, my body, my choice!"
This woman took a strong stand for herself!

You see, I was raised in a religious culture that used god to answer all of the difficult questions.
"Why did my dad die?"
                       "God needed his help."
"Why is my brother so sick?"
                       "God is testing him."
"Why does Grandpa act so mean?"
                       "Because God is waiting for  him to learn obedience." And on and on and on...

Well, I am no longer a child. I no longer buy the "god" thing. Over the years, I have developed my own credo, my own value system. It is based on personal experience by working with the concepts, the laws that say,

• "Ask and you shall receive."
• "As a man thinketh, so is he."
• "In the beginning was the Word.... my word."

I was ready to say NO to Death in a very big way.

For three days I applied all of the spiritual guidance, information, healing, transformation, and healing processes that I knew. Along the way I would ask, "Is the death plan gone?"

I continued the work until the answer from my Spiritual team came back, "yes".

That was the first phase of this journey that I didn't know would open up to me now.

What will happen next? Learning I am sure.

I'll share and take you with me on this walk from Death. Doors will have to be opened as I choose the possibility of a greater expression of Life in this physical body suit.

Blessings,