One Plus One Does Not Equal Two

Critical thinking begins with a concept. There is nothing that requires that the basic premise be accurate. Critical thinking is simply a model in which a concept, any concept, can be taken to its logical conclusion. Therefore, if the concept is incorrect or jaded, the conclusion will be incorrect or jaded. 

For example, many have observed that when some women, who we assume hold a female value system of wisdom, relationship building, and good for all of life, gets into corporate or political positions of leadership, she acts like the males supporting profit over people and we wonder why. Women who have power to set policy will make decisions and bring better good for all is our concept. Right. One plus one equals two of course. And so when that does not happen, we wonder is something amiss with this woman?

What is not factored into this idea of women in leadership is thatwe exist in a context created by systems built from agendas. A system that has been weighted over generations and generations of  “male” principles, and I use that term lightly, is a system rigid in profit, win-lose, you are with us or are the enemy, domination, obedience to authority, and the diminishing of women.

Traditionally, the values of women have been seen as: transparency, actions that prioritize relationships, enhancement of all in the web of life, and encouraging collaboration. These are a very different agenda, system and would result in a vastly different situations. 

When a woman goes into the system of control with the expectation that her presence will cause a change, finds that one plus one does not equal two. It equals one. The entrenched system of domination comes out on top as the ”one”.

A discussion table where the others view women as a “token” will diminish, devalue, ignore and soon her option is to get on board the old boy network or be locked out. Human beings are smart. They have learned to survive.Any group that has been discriminated against has learned to side with the controlling group, defend their actions, mimic their ideas and deny their discrimination. 

Women, often denying the fact, have lived generations in a system that diminishes them. Women are a group of ‘isms” without knowing it.

It had been thought that 33% females in leadership positions could bring new ideas for discussion and even make changes in policy. Recent studies suggest that any less than 67% females at most leadership tables will be discounted, ignored, held in contempt or treated with condensation. And if women don’t recognize that they are victims of a form of ism we will call womanism, they stay small wondering what is wrong with them when one plus one doesn’t add up to two.

As a woman wakes up, see a new vision, the clarity that she will need lots of others holding her hands, having her back as we transition out of our glorified enslavement... white woman "privilege" that has been our entrapment. Women holding hands with on another puts them on the freedom train to the new culture where one plus one will equal two. A culture that values and includes its women, that is the two we all want. 

“ I freed thousands of slaves and could have feed thousands more, if they had known they were slaves.”

Harriet Tubman

Women Standing Together

Clarity Trumps Anger!

"I totally understand the anger that motivated women to burn their bras in the 1960’s. And although I appreciate that those women stood up, I look around at the opportunities that I have as a woman in 2013 and can’t imagine life without options. 

"What I wonder about is my lack of anger. I know that there are still situations that are not good for women, for children and yet I have enough benefits in my life that I cannot muster up the anger. Anger motivated our mothers, anger fueled their actions and brought them together. Anger caused things to change.

"What about my motivation?"

This was a conversation into which I was invited.  When I am given the floor,  I will bring the mystic view. What is below the seen? What has been hidden in the shadows of the past? What has been buried in the Bones of our Ancestral Mothers?

For generations women gathered together monthly during their menses time. While their younger sisters were gathered, the Elder Crones sat in counsel with their wisdom and insight.  The women sang, they danced. They shared stories. They laughed. They cried. They visioned. Needs were laid in the circle space. Situations looking for solutions were spoken into their circle. The good of their children and loved ones was priority. They counseled together in transparency and wisdom.

These gatherings were not frivolous events. During those times, daily obligations were handled by others . Everyone in the village knew that the clarity and discernment of these women kept the entire village and each families healthy, happy and safe.

Our ancestral mothers were not motivated by anger. They were motivated by their clarity, their belly knowing, by their sacred trust to maintain the environment that allowed their village and families to thrive. Men and women knew that females held the deepest commitment to values that benefited the entire village They knew that women had the sensitivity of belly wisdom to feel when there was any “power gone awry”.

Their sensitivity could discern any shift that brought constriction that would lead to a diminishing of life; greed, deceit, discounting, discrimination, control, abuse, etc. Women spoke their word, "not acceptable", as a command. Whoever had brought these ideas or agendas would be removed. Domination and usury was not allowed in their village.

Anger has occurred because women have been stripped of their right to declare, "not acceptable!" and be heard. 

The Mystic View is that it is women's right to design social cultures that benefit all. This view is what has been discounted by the agenda of Control. 

What women had been left with was frustration and anger. It was the way that their cries could be expressed. The female's cry was, "This society is under domination, our energy is being sucked away, our children are suffering!" It was the female's cry to wake us up. It was critically important.

It is the female's belly wisdom that remembers that women are the intended architects for good. It is this deep knowing that will lead our world to restore systems that benefit humanity. Clarity of the female mission to stand firmly for cultures and systems of Good will create a culture of thriving rather than entrapment and lack.

Clarity anchors our feet to stay for as long as it takes and say, "not acceptable"! It isn't about power or battles to overwhelm. It is about the right of the female to discern, to speak the truth, to be heard and for changes to be designed.   

And now, there are millions of men who are standing with their global sisters in declaring, "not acceptable!"

The emerging voices of women will not be stopped!

Women's Grassroot Congress's Values 
 Cultural Creative's Values

Power in Choice

Choices Are Made for Birth and for Death

With deep integrity, Beings of Spirit, no matter how much they want to assist to end suffering, will not step in and direct our show. They will wait for the command/degree from those in physical bodies. We ask, they assist in the doing. We ask, and they assist in whispering the steps. We ask from a soul shift and our command moves the mountains in our lives.


That flies in the face of many personal growth, metaphysical, new age concepts that give the impression that the highest consciousness is to have Universe, Source, Greater Power tell you what is best. We have limited view, you see. Not! The power of choice, command, decree rests with those in physical body suits... you and I!

I am also very fortunate in that I have had 30 years of experience in asking questions directly to an amazing team of Spiritual teachers in the unseen. I have asked in other's behalf such questions as, "Is this situation manifesting because of inherited concepts, contracts, personal choice, mistaken ideas, etc.?" I was able to ask them, "Does my original plan contain my death this year?" I am finding that there are those who assume why a situation is manifesting. They read another's ideas or experience and take that as their answers. For example, I have two friends both with life threatening cancer diagnosis. As I asked their Higher Selves the reason for the disease, the answer for my first friend was that she had not planned to die at this time and yet she had made a powerful choice to "leave this #!@ planet" because of the deep pain during a relationship breakup. That choice had begun a disease to manifest this wish. When I tried to tell her with the suggestion that she could release the command and do the work to stop the disease, she discounted the information. She was sure that it was only a message from the Universe that she needed to slow down and rest. 

My second friend asked for my help also. When I checked with her Higher Self, I was told that she had planned that her life would end soon. Cancer was the manifestation of that original plan. And, like me, she was not ready. She listened, understood, made a new choice and is doing the integrated work to re-frame her life. 

I was so glad that I clearly understood the law, "Ask and ye shall receive" and had the experience to know what and how to ask. Otherwise, when my daughter gave me the information contained in my original plan, I would have bowed to death as the will of Source, who knows best for my life. I would have gotten my affairs in order.

I have great respect for the intelligence, creativity, vision and generosity of each of my Soul family members. As the spiritual aspect of this physical expression of me, my Soul- like yours- is magnificent beyond our ability to comprehend. I am getting a taste of how carefully we lay plans before we step into a physical body suit. I also know the immense changes that have come about during the last 13 years. Deep shifts that have made what had been impossible, possible. Although my Soul thought I would be ready to leave this year, my conscious self says, "No". That choice is the final say. Fortunately, my physical body had not been impacted by the pending disease to the point where the body could not turn around.

So here I am. A new grandma compressing herself in many ways, including packing boxes for storage in order to be ready for a new home in the fall. Compressing, resting and then choosing that the "explosion" of my own new birth will contain all of the magnificence of our Divine nature.
All is well!

A Well Planned Death

As I am walking with the awareness of my plan to die in November 2013, various situations in my life take on new significance. Like my friend Wren.

Wren has lived in Shasta, CA for several years. The past January she decided that she was ready to move to Tuscon, AZ. As she made her plans for the move, she told me that she wanted to come for a visit me on her "way". Let's see. Wren is in Shasta, CA. I live in the Seattle, WA area. Her final destination is Tuscon, AZ. She wants to visit me on her "way" to Tuscon? Do you see my puzzlement?

Well, I knew that I would certainly enjoy spending time with her anytime and so I was glad to say yes!

It was during our time on Whidbey Island, time we had to talk, to contemplate, to cook together and to rest that I saw her visit from the "death" plan.  In the "death scenario, if she had gone directly to Tuscon, she and I would not have had a "last time" together. In that possibility, this visit would have been a perfect "ending" to our friendship.

I am amazed at the consideration that went into my life plan, and I am sure into yours. We are not here by chance, by accident, without purpose until we make it up. Because of that, I am staying very vigilant with my inner feelings, spiritual signals and power of my "in the now" command.

I have gone through the alert stage, the first ultrasound that discovered abnormalities in the thyroid, the medical visits, more extensive ultrasounds, and biopsies. The results of which are in.... no cancer within a 10% or less margin of error in the thyroid and nothing in the lymph.

Jumping ahead, my doctor who is very thorough, wanted a CT scan on the entire head and neck area. That has been done and all is well!

So, the projectory toward a death in November has changed dramatically.

The stage I am in now is working with my spiritual teams, designing a life beyond what was the end. I am sensing the "void", the "slow-down", the "completion" feelings that were part of the first plan as well of the growing excitement for the new.

Am I thrilled for the previous 30 years of working with spiritual healers and guides who have shown me how to see below the surface, into the shadows, past the minimal answers to discover the true "cause" of situations? I could have taken the standard line that the warning was just about me getting on a more "true" path. NOT!

We are so much more powerful and central to our lives than we have remembered!

Grateful for Unlimited Possibilities!

And Then, This Happened...

I cannot believe that it is already May 13! Once a few unexpected medical visits are added to one's calendar, other things, like keeping up with this blog, are crowded out.

The last time I wrote, I was on my way to have a full ultrasound on my thyroid and surrounding lymph glands. Thankfully, all of the processes so far were rather painless. Never the less, my daughters are now mothering me through this journey. They are taking turns sitting with me, either in the medical office or in the waiting room.

Just so you know, much of what I am now writing is a catch-up, like telling the story after the fact. Oh well...

The thyroid ultrasound showed some problematic nodes on the thyroid and in the lymph system. "Next step, " said my medical doctor, "is to have biopsies done on both thyroid and lymph." I agreed. This journey is not about preventing the use of Western medicine. This journey is about not ending my life in November. If more tests are needed to determine the steps the Western medical training would recommend, more tests it is.

I was told to come prepared to be there for two hours. "Will I need someone to drive me home?" I asked. That would not be necessary I was assured.

Nevertheless, with my daughter, Michelle, by my side, I went for my biopsy. She went into the waiting room and I went into the "lay-down and let us carefully poke your neck" room.

This is not my actual biopsy picture.....

Two hours later we were on our way home to wait for the results to be sent to my lymph doctor. By now in addition to my regular medical doctor I have two specialist: Endocrine doctor whom I have not met and Ear, Nose, Throat (lymph) doctor who is directing the show.

As I move forward with the Western pieces, I continue to use my zeolite product, my brown seaweed product, an anti-biotic for a mild sinus infection, Benoite clay packs on the right neck area, Vitamin C and lots of good water. I am in regular communication with my Spiritual team who are fully on board with my new choice to live without an end date. With this new choice, they can notify me with any thing that unbalances my systems, triggers old death energies and keep a vigil on those unseen fields that are the foundations for what becomes physical.  I am feeling really quite good.

My friend Wren is coming to visit me in Seattle on her "way" to a new home in Tuscon, AZ. Does that sound strange? Well, it will not seem so after I share the next installment of my saga along with the results of the biopsies.

Cancer as Part of Healing Team

There are some bits of information that are not helpful for a medical doctor. Telling him that you just found out that you had included the time for your death in your pre-life plans and that date was six months away, is probably something that will cause his eyes to glaze over.

So, in my appointment with my regular medical physician, I simply brought him the findings from my carotid artery ultrasound with the comment that something irregular was going on in my thyroid. I figured that he would take it from there.

First, he was puzzled.

"Why did you have an ultrasound for the caroitid?"

"Because my Chinese doctor suggested we check out that part of the circulatory system." What I did not way was that Dr. Wang believes in prevention in anyway that will do no harm,

He asked if I had any thyroid symptom.

"Well," I replied, "just the strange throat and upper bronchial sensations that we had concluded were allergy related."

He filled a cup with water and had me drink as he felt the thyroid. Nothing "wrong" that he could detect and yet clearly the ultrasound showed nodules that ought not to be there.

Next, blood tests to see if there were any indications of thyroid abnormalities from that test. No. Nothing showed up.

"Well, the next step," he said, "is to go to some specialists; one for the thyroid and one for the lymph which may be involved."

Oh, did I mention. One member of my family died from thyroid cancer and another had to have her thyroid removed because of cancer.

With the two appointments set, I went home to resume my regime of zeolite, brown seaweed and clay packs. And, of course, conversations with my spiritual, healing team. My goal is not to prevent testing or surgery. My goal is to prevent my death in November 2013. Whatever it takes.

Because I respected cancer and death as forms responding to my own plan, I began to have conversations with them.  What was the message that cancer had for me? What was the job that I had given death? What in my energy fields will  prevent their release? What in any of my bodies (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) needs more attention in order to let go of my original plan?

This is a model very close to my belief... integrated and inclusive

As I shared with a few friends who do healing work, the suggestion was made that I gather all of my strength and resources to "fight" cancer.

That did not fit my model of this world. My approach was that I had always been in charge. Death had been my choice at some point and was therefore not my "enemy". In conversations with cancer and death I valued their insight, awareness and contribution. We were on the same side. The side of causing my soul growth and accomplishing my soul's plan. They became valuable members of my team.

The first specialist, the lymph doctor- Eyes, Ears, Nose and Throat, rushed me into an appointment for a full ultrasound on my thyroid and lymph.

Let's see what shows up with this full on look.

Messages Come. Am I Listening?

Death Whispered

As you might guess, when I told my children about the possibility of my death, my new choice and the ultra-sound discovery of problems in the thyroid, they were worried.

No, it was not okay with them for me to do my own work and then recheck the thyroid in one month.
Because I value, needless to say, my relationships with my children, I agreed to make an appointment with my medical doctor. Then, a new turn of events.

I woke up one morning at 3:20 am. Not super unusual, regular sleep break. Then, for the next 2 hours I lay, relaxed, lay, relaxed, lay, quieted my mind, lay... you get the picture.

Just as I was ready to nod off... my alarm went off! This is the same alarm that I had reset the night before because I didn't have an early morning call. Yet, here it was, going off. I touched my iPhone screen, turned over and took a deep breath, still time for a bit of sleep. But, no. I had touched the "snooze" link of the alarm and so it buzzed to alert me again.

For the next hour, I had alarms going off that I didn't see were set when I checked last nite. In all, 7 alarms between 3:50 am and the "real" one at 7:55 am.

What is with that?

Fortunately I have had years to notice energy at the various dimensions of our world. I will not ignore this mornings "alarms" or pass them off as "mistakes" or be angry at the disruptions. Energy, in whatever vibrational form it comes, carries information. With my current journey to stop my own "death" plan, it would be very foolhardy to not recoginize the energy forms of "alarms" and take time to get the message.

First, off to my morning job I said to those sending the alarms, "I got the message that I need to listen. I will take the time right after work and so you can relax, no more alarms." I find that this type of acknowledgement and conversation is important. Working with Spiritual beings is a two way conversations, no assumptions on my part that they are reading my mind.

This has been my experience for over 30 years!

Later that day, I sent to the sacred space I have used for years. Quieted my body, stilled my mind and made myself available to the information that comes beyond the "hearing" of my ears.

My first question, "Who knows the reason for the alarms?"

"I do," came the inner answer.

"What is your message for me?"

"There are more movements in the unseen energy fields that were there to support your plan to end your time in the physical body. Since you have changed that choice, you will need to address the complex energy forms that in process."

"How many patterns," I ask.

"There."

And so I turned my attention to ones would could give voice to those patterns which, I discovered, came from past experiences. Using processes from my energy healing toolbox, I discovered the patterns came from experience from the times when women were tortured, burned, and killed by those who feared their power to change structures of domination.The concepts were that life on Earth is not safe, being females is not safe, death is the outcome when a woman speaks out.

I used my Spiritual healing team to embrace and transform those patterns, release the aspects of myself that had been killed, and dissipated the death vibrations.

Messages send, received and applied.

My choice to remain on the planet is in tact...

Now, off to my medical doctor for the Western medical piece.