And Then, This Happened...

I cannot believe that it is already May 13! Once a few unexpected medical visits are added to one's calendar, other things, like keeping up with this blog, are crowded out.

The last time I wrote, I was on my way to have a full ultrasound on my thyroid and surrounding lymph glands. Thankfully, all of the processes so far were rather painless. Never the less, my daughters are now mothering me through this journey. They are taking turns sitting with me, either in the medical office or in the waiting room.

Just so you know, much of what I am now writing is a catch-up, like telling the story after the fact. Oh well...

The thyroid ultrasound showed some problematic nodes on the thyroid and in the lymph system. "Next step, " said my medical doctor, "is to have biopsies done on both thyroid and lymph." I agreed. This journey is not about preventing the use of Western medicine. This journey is about not ending my life in November. If more tests are needed to determine the steps the Western medical training would recommend, more tests it is.

I was told to come prepared to be there for two hours. "Will I need someone to drive me home?" I asked. That would not be necessary I was assured.

Nevertheless, with my daughter, Michelle, by my side, I went for my biopsy. She went into the waiting room and I went into the "lay-down and let us carefully poke your neck" room.

This is not my actual biopsy picture.....

Two hours later we were on our way home to wait for the results to be sent to my lymph doctor. By now in addition to my regular medical doctor I have two specialist: Endocrine doctor whom I have not met and Ear, Nose, Throat (lymph) doctor who is directing the show.

As I move forward with the Western pieces, I continue to use my zeolite product, my brown seaweed product, an anti-biotic for a mild sinus infection, Benoite clay packs on the right neck area, Vitamin C and lots of good water. I am in regular communication with my Spiritual team who are fully on board with my new choice to live without an end date. With this new choice, they can notify me with any thing that unbalances my systems, triggers old death energies and keep a vigil on those unseen fields that are the foundations for what becomes physical.  I am feeling really quite good.

My friend Wren is coming to visit me in Seattle on her "way" to a new home in Tuscon, AZ. Does that sound strange? Well, it will not seem so after I share the next installment of my saga along with the results of the biopsies.

Cancer as Part of Healing Team

There are some bits of information that are not helpful for a medical doctor. Telling him that you just found out that you had included the time for your death in your pre-life plans and that date was six months away, is probably something that will cause his eyes to glaze over.

So, in my appointment with my regular medical physician, I simply brought him the findings from my carotid artery ultrasound with the comment that something irregular was going on in my thyroid. I figured that he would take it from there.

First, he was puzzled.

"Why did you have an ultrasound for the caroitid?"

"Because my Chinese doctor suggested we check out that part of the circulatory system." What I did not way was that Dr. Wang believes in prevention in anyway that will do no harm,

He asked if I had any thyroid symptom.

"Well," I replied, "just the strange throat and upper bronchial sensations that we had concluded were allergy related."

He filled a cup with water and had me drink as he felt the thyroid. Nothing "wrong" that he could detect and yet clearly the ultrasound showed nodules that ought not to be there.

Next, blood tests to see if there were any indications of thyroid abnormalities from that test. No. Nothing showed up.

"Well, the next step," he said, "is to go to some specialists; one for the thyroid and one for the lymph which may be involved."

Oh, did I mention. One member of my family died from thyroid cancer and another had to have her thyroid removed because of cancer.

With the two appointments set, I went home to resume my regime of zeolite, brown seaweed and clay packs. And, of course, conversations with my spiritual, healing team. My goal is not to prevent testing or surgery. My goal is to prevent my death in November 2013. Whatever it takes.

Because I respected cancer and death as forms responding to my own plan, I began to have conversations with them.  What was the message that cancer had for me? What was the job that I had given death? What in my energy fields will  prevent their release? What in any of my bodies (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) needs more attention in order to let go of my original plan?

This is a model very close to my belief... integrated and inclusive

As I shared with a few friends who do healing work, the suggestion was made that I gather all of my strength and resources to "fight" cancer.

That did not fit my model of this world. My approach was that I had always been in charge. Death had been my choice at some point and was therefore not my "enemy". In conversations with cancer and death I valued their insight, awareness and contribution. We were on the same side. The side of causing my soul growth and accomplishing my soul's plan. They became valuable members of my team.

The first specialist, the lymph doctor- Eyes, Ears, Nose and Throat, rushed me into an appointment for a full ultrasound on my thyroid and lymph.

Let's see what shows up with this full on look.

Messages Come. Am I Listening?

Death Whispered

As you might guess, when I told my children about the possibility of my death, my new choice and the ultra-sound discovery of problems in the thyroid, they were worried.

No, it was not okay with them for me to do my own work and then recheck the thyroid in one month.
Because I value, needless to say, my relationships with my children, I agreed to make an appointment with my medical doctor. Then, a new turn of events.

I woke up one morning at 3:20 am. Not super unusual, regular sleep break. Then, for the next 2 hours I lay, relaxed, lay, relaxed, lay, quieted my mind, lay... you get the picture.

Just as I was ready to nod off... my alarm went off! This is the same alarm that I had reset the night before because I didn't have an early morning call. Yet, here it was, going off. I touched my iPhone screen, turned over and took a deep breath, still time for a bit of sleep. But, no. I had touched the "snooze" link of the alarm and so it buzzed to alert me again.

For the next hour, I had alarms going off that I didn't see were set when I checked last nite. In all, 7 alarms between 3:50 am and the "real" one at 7:55 am.

What is with that?

Fortunately I have had years to notice energy at the various dimensions of our world. I will not ignore this mornings "alarms" or pass them off as "mistakes" or be angry at the disruptions. Energy, in whatever vibrational form it comes, carries information. With my current journey to stop my own "death" plan, it would be very foolhardy to not recoginize the energy forms of "alarms" and take time to get the message.

First, off to my morning job I said to those sending the alarms, "I got the message that I need to listen. I will take the time right after work and so you can relax, no more alarms." I find that this type of acknowledgement and conversation is important. Working with Spiritual beings is a two way conversations, no assumptions on my part that they are reading my mind.

This has been my experience for over 30 years!

Later that day, I sent to the sacred space I have used for years. Quieted my body, stilled my mind and made myself available to the information that comes beyond the "hearing" of my ears.

My first question, "Who knows the reason for the alarms?"

"I do," came the inner answer.

"What is your message for me?"

"There are more movements in the unseen energy fields that were there to support your plan to end your time in the physical body. Since you have changed that choice, you will need to address the complex energy forms that in process."

"How many patterns," I ask.

"There."

And so I turned my attention to ones would could give voice to those patterns which, I discovered, came from past experiences. Using processes from my energy healing toolbox, I discovered the patterns came from experience from the times when women were tortured, burned, and killed by those who feared their power to change structures of domination.The concepts were that life on Earth is not safe, being females is not safe, death is the outcome when a woman speaks out.

I used my Spiritual healing team to embrace and transform those patterns, release the aspects of myself that had been killed, and dissipated the death vibrations.

Messages send, received and applied.

My choice to remain on the planet is in tact...

Now, off to my medical doctor for the Western medical piece.

Saying No To Death... Now What?

I had paid attention to the information from my daughter. I had checked out the validity of the information with my own Spiritual team and found it accurate. I had made the choice to change the death that I had evidently planned for myself. Now what?


Now... I went on with my activities with the underlying command, "I am living a long, healthy, meaningful life in this body suit on this planet."  Yes, a command. I have moved very far along the choice line from , "God gives me life situations and my responsibility is to do the best I can with them" to "I pray and hopefully god is out there to listen" to "God who?" to "I can change my life by changing my thoughts.... sometimes" to "I can have input into my life" to "I am the commander of my life within the greater web of energy response that holds all of us." That may make sense to some and no sense at all to others. For me, it is a very powerful stand in which no one and no thing is a more impact in my life than me. And, it is not about control of all things.

But I digress...

As I have said, I made an appoint to see Dr. Wang. By then, I had decided to ask about the heaviness I sometimes felt in my bronchial area and my shortness of breath when I did a bit of strenuous walking such as going up stairs. I had told my medical doctor over the past 3-4 years and he could find nothing wrong. Even the clinic training naturopaths offered no solutions. He took all of the pulses, listened to my, heart, lungs and bronchial area. He asked about family history, checked more and said with a rather heavy Chinese accent, "Heart good, lungs clear". Then he used a words I had never heard in my medical experience, "prevention" and "do no harm." I almost laughed.

He suggested that I could get an ultrasound of the carotid arteries that run on either side of the neck to take blood to the brain. There was no indication of problem, just as a baseline of that part of my circulatory system. Sounded good to me.

So the next day I am laying on a table having the ultra sound. The technician asks about my thyroid. Did I have hypo or hyper activity? "No," I replied. "Why?"

"Well," there are some abnormalities there, especially in the right thyroid. Because the carotids are next to the thyroid, we often catch problems that would otherwise go undetected. She even let the "c" word slip out. "I grew up in the downwind area of the nuclear testing.... one type of radiation is stored in the thyroid," I said as she knowingly nodded her head. "I will make a note of this on the report to your doctor," she said.


As I left the building, I asked my Spiritual team, "So, was this the way I would have had my life end?" "Yes," they replied. "And you could not have warned me because it was an expression of my plan to die?" "That is correct. Until you changed your plan, we had to honor your original word that you would be leaving this body this year. The way your end came would not have been a mistake, the result of negative thinking, because an external "god" wanted you home, or because you were finished with what you wanted to do. Some lives do end earlier than they had originally planned. That is not the case with you. Your death this year would have been the result of the plan you had made before coming into the body suit."

"Once you had made a new choice, worked to change the underlying energy fields, and commanded a different outcome, we had permission, indeed requirement, to show you the components that were building to end your life. The "brain glitches" were message givers. We trusted that you would ask us about them and then we could get you to Dr. Wang who would get you to the ultrasound. Even the technician played her part. How many technician tell you anything about what they are seeing? Her friend had been saved from thyroid cancer because of a similar chance ultrasound. The words just slipped out."

"Well, now I know what to do," I said.

I went home and began taking a cleansing level of zeolite and a healing amount of brown seaweed. Both used to remove radiation and to prevent cancer. And I created quiet space to begin conversations with the thyroid energy and a body design team in spirit. I totally know that the woo-woo work of the unseen lays and changes the foundations from which the physical manifests. I had more work to do.... and my children to tell.

Death and Spiritual Choices

Some might wonder about getting the information about pending "death" from some Spiritual Guides. I will tell you. Someone who knows that we are multi-dimensional beings. Someone who knows that we all exist in unseen fields of energy. Someone who understands that the "web of life" is not a word picture but words for what is truth. Someone who understands that the unseen fields of energy become/influence that tactile fields of energy of touch, taste, feel, see, hear that most call the "real" world.

Like Einstein suggested and has been proven, when you take matter/physical and speed up the components/atoms/quanta, it becomes energy/unseen or spiritual.

Because those of us who work within the energy fields/dimensions beyond the 1, 2 and 3 of what our physical sensing system can discern, dis-ease or other problems can be identified and therefore "healed" or changed.

Our innate abilities to work within all of the various fields of our live, Spiritual, Emotional, Mental and Physical has been "hidden in the shadows". The shadows of fear, of torture, of dis-counting, of domination, of over 300 years of witch hunts and burning times was enough to force us into obedience to outside voices.

Fortunately for me, I was called and trained as a radical mystic and so for over 30 years have been taught to re-member. With all of those years and experience under my belt, the first place to go with the news of my planned "death" was to my proven Spiritual team.

My ability is ask questions within sacred, protected space and to get accurate answers. So, this was the time ask.... Death? Why? When? What does that mean? Do I have any choice in this end result?

And so I took the time to be in quiet, sacred space to ask and listen. This is what I discovered about what was held in the energy fields beyond physical. I am sharing how this fits within my own personal belief structure of how life is designed.

1. In the plan that I made for my life with the advisers who worked with me as a "soul" before I was birthed into this body suit and this lifetime, I had placed the exit time for this year... my 72nd year.
2. The date was to be late November of 2013.
3. Yes, I did have the right, authority and power to override that exit date. (which is what I had done even before I spent time to understand this more clearly.)

Within 2 weeks of having set a new staff in the ground to say, "No! I am not going to leave this body, this life, this family, these friends, these projects, this adventure", I had two brain glitches. The happened a day apart from each other.

1. I was teaching a class. I went to say and word and my mouth would not make the shape for the word to happen. It took about three tries until the shape of my mouth was correct. Troubling.
2. The next day I was talking to another business on the phone. They asked for my address. My mind could not sort out is the number sequence was 345 or 543... I had to read the address off of an envelope. More troubling...

I immediately went to my Spiritual team and asked, "Is there some neurological problem that I need to be aware of?"

"No," they answered. "And make an appointment to see Dr. Wang."

Dr Wang is a Chinese medical doctor who was trained in China using long acupuncture needles for the brain. He worked with individuals who had suffered a stroke and had worked on my daughter Carolyn after her car accident. I thought that perhaps he would be able to "trigger on" whatever my brain may have been stuck with.

How wrong I was! I learned, again, that we usually do not know ahead of time the "whys" of life. 

A Woman Stands and the Worlds Re-Arrange...

A journey with Death....

Late February, 2013
A daughter has informed me that through her own personal spiritual guidance that my life would be ending soon and that she and the family needed to get prepared.

I am shocked. I have spent the past three weeks evaluating the condition of my body, my mind, my memory, my energy level and they have all passed with flying colors. I have been telling everyone that in every way, my physical body and mind are better at 71 and 1/2 years old than 10 years ago.

So... off I go to my Spiritual team. "Is this information true?" I ask.

"Oh yes," comes back the answer.

"Well," I reply, "death is not going to happen! My life, my body, my choice!"
This woman took a strong stand for herself!

You see, I was raised in a religious culture that used god to answer all of the difficult questions.
"Why did my dad die?"
                       "God needed his help."
"Why is my brother so sick?"
                       "God is testing him."
"Why does Grandpa act so mean?"
                       "Because God is waiting for  him to learn obedience." And on and on and on...

Well, I am no longer a child. I no longer buy the "god" thing. Over the years, I have developed my own credo, my own value system. It is based on personal experience by working with the concepts, the laws that say,

• "Ask and you shall receive."
• "As a man thinketh, so is he."
• "In the beginning was the Word.... my word."

I was ready to say NO to Death in a very big way.

For three days I applied all of the spiritual guidance, information, healing, transformation, and healing processes that I knew. Along the way I would ask, "Is the death plan gone?"

I continued the work until the answer from my Spiritual team came back, "yes".

That was the first phase of this journey that I didn't know would open up to me now.

What will happen next? Learning I am sure.

I'll share and take you with me on this walk from Death. Doors will have to be opened as I choose the possibility of a greater expression of Life in this physical body suit.

Blessings,

Mother Earth Adds Her Voice

The focus of my work with women expanded with information I was given from the Intelligent Being we call Mother Earth, the voice from the member of our Divine family who holds the space for the manifestation we call "our planet".

She came to me in Spring 1997 as I sat on Orcas Island to rejuvenate from a very intense care giving time for my daughter, Carolyn.

I share the Mother's words as they came to me. May they touch your heart!
Blessings,

Sharon Riegie

Spring, 1997
Dow Bay, Orcas Island, WA
  

"Greetings, my daughter. We are here today to begin awakening women, to remind them of the magic of being female. 

“There is a large circle of your Spiritual Sisters here and as Mother Earth I will be spokesperson. We want you to know that we, the Golden Dragons, are here!"

Now the question is, “What can I say to my daughters that will free them quickly? How to give truths so that all women around the world will drop off the false masks, heavy chains and get humanity out of its’ death cycle. Yes, you are in a death cycle, you have a death wish, living under the heavy mantle of many death wishes, and it is time to snap out of it!

"Well, let me see,” and there was a pause. And then the words continued. 

“We must begin were we begin and pray that our love will be enough to lift our sisters into their clarity and power.

"We plan to be practical, use common sense, and suggest a lot of magic. It is my purpose to provide a path so women can step into their true mission. This information is like none other for it is from the Ancient One, the crone of the earth, the Mother returning truth and purpose to her daughters, the Goddess you have had ripped away from yourself. My dear one, with my help, you will dream awake the bones of your mothers and of the female mission. The deep commitment you feel for Natalie’s safety and happiness is a representation of this mission. You do this for her and for all future generations."

"I reach out to my daughters, my sisters, my mothers and grandmothers. I gather you all in my arms to return you to the heart, soul and power of yourselves. 

"I gather you onto my lap, wrap you in protection, in invisibility, in love and in joy as I rock you and sing the songs of your beginnings.

"To awaken a desire to know your beginnings you need only look into the eyes of your children and feel your heart ache for their safety. To find the courage to find your roots you need only feel the pain as you look out over the world in its rush into war and greed. To deepen your commitment to plant your feet onto the Earth and say, “No more!” you need only acknowledge the heavy sense of insanity and powerlessness many lie down with each night. Have you sensed the emptiness around you?” 

“Your children are ready to live in new ways. My question to all of my sisters is, “Are you ready to help them?’ 

"Deep inside, so deep inside that it may be but a flicker, you know that things are not as they ought to be. In that deep inner place, the place that you dare not touch for fear of the pain and of the rage, you tell yourself that you must keep still. You tell yourself that others will do it. You tell yourself that it is not a woman’s place. While at the same time, you know that in keeping still, expecting others, or waiting for the men, you and your children will die.

"In our cave, deeply hidden, in circle we wait. There are others with me. We are your sisters. We are together, eyes closed, heads bowed; waiting, hoping, still. We have turned ourselves off because we must. But, be assured. We are not dead. We are not despondent. We wait by choice for the moment of your awakening. We watch. We listen. And we wait. We have waited for generations. When you awaken, when you come out of your imposed stupor, when you see the loss of your true selves, our mission together can begin.

"Close your eyes, quiet your mind, and sink deeply within yourself. Sit beside us. You can sense, see, and feel our circle. Breath. Be still and know your place with us.”

"Notice our calm, the depth of our clarity, the absoluteness of our love, the vigilance in our quiet. Breath. Feel our energy embrace you. We hold the mission of women waiting to re-emerge. We hold the truth of your grandeur, wisdom and power. 

“We are not frightened, frivolous or fretful. We know we will prevail. We know that love will triumph. We know that our Greater family will walk into their Divine nobility.”

"Come, sit within our circle. Let our stillness permeate you until you know our space, until you become one with us. We have held the remembrance and now we invite you to step out of your drama into the remembrance. We have held truth for you. There is nowhere you need to get; this place has been with you forever. We hold space and now, we are ready to enfold you within our circle.

“Listen as I, the Mother, tell your story."
  
"My dear daughters, sisters, you have been lead down the garden path, as they say."

"You have been raped, tortured, enslaved. All this was done in the hope that you, all women, would forget who they are. Many, no most of you, have gone into the dramas and have played the roles written for you: the role of harlot, bitch, victim, witch, crazy, valueless, crazy, slave. You have cut off your sisters, turned on each other, competed for the attention of men, clawed to keep each other small, denied your value and place, and played roles assimilated to the culture of enslavement. 

“You have done all of these things to keep your true, precious Selves from being totally destroyed. Generation after generation you secreted away your magic. First you hide is away within my stones, water, air and fire. Then, you tamped their call deep within your bones and bought the voices that discounted your intuitive wisdom and clear seeing visions. Lifetime after lifetime you locked your knowledge, boxed and hidden away within yourselves. Time after time you sided with the oppressors to still their power to destroy you. In village after village you stood in secret circles and promised to keep yourself and your sisters small in order to preserve women’s lives. And more importantly, you have played the roles to keep this secret cave undiscovered. I repeat you have played lesser roles in order to keep the secret of women and the strength of women protected. 

“Hear me!

"You have come to believe that you are the roles. After being in the dramas of fear and cruelty used to force your mothers and grandmothers into subservience, you have come to believe you have no value. You have assumed that females are weak, are disgusting, are were nothing. 

“The truth is that you began playing these roles to preserve the power of females. From a place of magnificence, of intelligence, of commitment you CHOSE to pretend weakness. You have put yourself through the fires of hell to protect the sacred female mission, to protect all who know the truth of sisterhood and to preserve your flicker of deep inner light until we could all rise to our mission, the mission of women to lead this world into glorious expressions of our Divine Nature.

"We are telling you that the need to be false is over! The strength of your eternal intelligence, wholeness and authority has been re-membered in the highest dimensions of Light. You can no longer hold on to the false roles. It is not a matter of being strong and clear when you are ready. We are ready! All of the false masks, false protections, and false roles among women must be removed. We tell you that it is time to unplug from the dramas of false roles and subjugating systems. Unplug. We have established impermeable boundaries that provide environments for the evolution of humankind, boundaries that give you safety. 

"Sisters, we are ready to roar with you as lions, ready to run as wolves, ready to weave magic into the world. We are ready to wake up and move mountains! We are the Golden Dragons holding Female Truth and YOU are one of us!"