Cancer as Part of Healing Team

There are some bits of information that are not helpful for a medical doctor. Telling him that you just found out that you had included the time for your death in your pre-life plans and that date was six months away, is probably something that will cause his eyes to glaze over.

So, in my appointment with my regular medical physician, I simply brought him the findings from my carotid artery ultrasound with the comment that something irregular was going on in my thyroid. I figured that he would take it from there.

First, he was puzzled.

"Why did you have an ultrasound for the caroitid?"

"Because my Chinese doctor suggested we check out that part of the circulatory system." What I did not way was that Dr. Wang believes in prevention in anyway that will do no harm,

He asked if I had any thyroid symptom.

"Well," I replied, "just the strange throat and upper bronchial sensations that we had concluded were allergy related."

He filled a cup with water and had me drink as he felt the thyroid. Nothing "wrong" that he could detect and yet clearly the ultrasound showed nodules that ought not to be there.

Next, blood tests to see if there were any indications of thyroid abnormalities from that test. No. Nothing showed up.

"Well, the next step," he said, "is to go to some specialists; one for the thyroid and one for the lymph which may be involved."

Oh, did I mention. One member of my family died from thyroid cancer and another had to have her thyroid removed because of cancer.

With the two appointments set, I went home to resume my regime of zeolite, brown seaweed and clay packs. And, of course, conversations with my spiritual, healing team. My goal is not to prevent testing or surgery. My goal is to prevent my death in November 2013. Whatever it takes.

Because I respected cancer and death as forms responding to my own plan, I began to have conversations with them.  What was the message that cancer had for me? What was the job that I had given death? What in my energy fields will  prevent their release? What in any of my bodies (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) needs more attention in order to let go of my original plan?

This is a model very close to my belief... integrated and inclusive

As I shared with a few friends who do healing work, the suggestion was made that I gather all of my strength and resources to "fight" cancer.

That did not fit my model of this world. My approach was that I had always been in charge. Death had been my choice at some point and was therefore not my "enemy". In conversations with cancer and death I valued their insight, awareness and contribution. We were on the same side. The side of causing my soul growth and accomplishing my soul's plan. They became valuable members of my team.

The first specialist, the lymph doctor- Eyes, Ears, Nose and Throat, rushed me into an appointment for a full ultrasound on my thyroid and lymph.

Let's see what shows up with this full on look.

Messages Come. Am I Listening?

Death Whispered

As you might guess, when I told my children about the possibility of my death, my new choice and the ultra-sound discovery of problems in the thyroid, they were worried.

No, it was not okay with them for me to do my own work and then recheck the thyroid in one month.
Because I value, needless to say, my relationships with my children, I agreed to make an appointment with my medical doctor. Then, a new turn of events.

I woke up one morning at 3:20 am. Not super unusual, regular sleep break. Then, for the next 2 hours I lay, relaxed, lay, relaxed, lay, quieted my mind, lay... you get the picture.

Just as I was ready to nod off... my alarm went off! This is the same alarm that I had reset the night before because I didn't have an early morning call. Yet, here it was, going off. I touched my iPhone screen, turned over and took a deep breath, still time for a bit of sleep. But, no. I had touched the "snooze" link of the alarm and so it buzzed to alert me again.

For the next hour, I had alarms going off that I didn't see were set when I checked last nite. In all, 7 alarms between 3:50 am and the "real" one at 7:55 am.

What is with that?

Fortunately I have had years to notice energy at the various dimensions of our world. I will not ignore this mornings "alarms" or pass them off as "mistakes" or be angry at the disruptions. Energy, in whatever vibrational form it comes, carries information. With my current journey to stop my own "death" plan, it would be very foolhardy to not recoginize the energy forms of "alarms" and take time to get the message.

First, off to my morning job I said to those sending the alarms, "I got the message that I need to listen. I will take the time right after work and so you can relax, no more alarms." I find that this type of acknowledgement and conversation is important. Working with Spiritual beings is a two way conversations, no assumptions on my part that they are reading my mind.

This has been my experience for over 30 years!

Later that day, I sent to the sacred space I have used for years. Quieted my body, stilled my mind and made myself available to the information that comes beyond the "hearing" of my ears.

My first question, "Who knows the reason for the alarms?"

"I do," came the inner answer.

"What is your message for me?"

"There are more movements in the unseen energy fields that were there to support your plan to end your time in the physical body. Since you have changed that choice, you will need to address the complex energy forms that in process."

"How many patterns," I ask.

"There."

And so I turned my attention to ones would could give voice to those patterns which, I discovered, came from past experiences. Using processes from my energy healing toolbox, I discovered the patterns came from experience from the times when women were tortured, burned, and killed by those who feared their power to change structures of domination.The concepts were that life on Earth is not safe, being females is not safe, death is the outcome when a woman speaks out.

I used my Spiritual healing team to embrace and transform those patterns, release the aspects of myself that had been killed, and dissipated the death vibrations.

Messages send, received and applied.

My choice to remain on the planet is in tact...

Now, off to my medical doctor for the Western medical piece.

Saying No To Death... Now What?

I had paid attention to the information from my daughter. I had checked out the validity of the information with my own Spiritual team and found it accurate. I had made the choice to change the death that I had evidently planned for myself. Now what?


Now... I went on with my activities with the underlying command, "I am living a long, healthy, meaningful life in this body suit on this planet."  Yes, a command. I have moved very far along the choice line from , "God gives me life situations and my responsibility is to do the best I can with them" to "I pray and hopefully god is out there to listen" to "God who?" to "I can change my life by changing my thoughts.... sometimes" to "I can have input into my life" to "I am the commander of my life within the greater web of energy response that holds all of us." That may make sense to some and no sense at all to others. For me, it is a very powerful stand in which no one and no thing is a more impact in my life than me. And, it is not about control of all things.

But I digress...

As I have said, I made an appoint to see Dr. Wang. By then, I had decided to ask about the heaviness I sometimes felt in my bronchial area and my shortness of breath when I did a bit of strenuous walking such as going up stairs. I had told my medical doctor over the past 3-4 years and he could find nothing wrong. Even the clinic training naturopaths offered no solutions. He took all of the pulses, listened to my, heart, lungs and bronchial area. He asked about family history, checked more and said with a rather heavy Chinese accent, "Heart good, lungs clear". Then he used a words I had never heard in my medical experience, "prevention" and "do no harm." I almost laughed.

He suggested that I could get an ultrasound of the carotid arteries that run on either side of the neck to take blood to the brain. There was no indication of problem, just as a baseline of that part of my circulatory system. Sounded good to me.

So the next day I am laying on a table having the ultra sound. The technician asks about my thyroid. Did I have hypo or hyper activity? "No," I replied. "Why?"

"Well," there are some abnormalities there, especially in the right thyroid. Because the carotids are next to the thyroid, we often catch problems that would otherwise go undetected. She even let the "c" word slip out. "I grew up in the downwind area of the nuclear testing.... one type of radiation is stored in the thyroid," I said as she knowingly nodded her head. "I will make a note of this on the report to your doctor," she said.


As I left the building, I asked my Spiritual team, "So, was this the way I would have had my life end?" "Yes," they replied. "And you could not have warned me because it was an expression of my plan to die?" "That is correct. Until you changed your plan, we had to honor your original word that you would be leaving this body this year. The way your end came would not have been a mistake, the result of negative thinking, because an external "god" wanted you home, or because you were finished with what you wanted to do. Some lives do end earlier than they had originally planned. That is not the case with you. Your death this year would have been the result of the plan you had made before coming into the body suit."

"Once you had made a new choice, worked to change the underlying energy fields, and commanded a different outcome, we had permission, indeed requirement, to show you the components that were building to end your life. The "brain glitches" were message givers. We trusted that you would ask us about them and then we could get you to Dr. Wang who would get you to the ultrasound. Even the technician played her part. How many technician tell you anything about what they are seeing? Her friend had been saved from thyroid cancer because of a similar chance ultrasound. The words just slipped out."

"Well, now I know what to do," I said.

I went home and began taking a cleansing level of zeolite and a healing amount of brown seaweed. Both used to remove radiation and to prevent cancer. And I created quiet space to begin conversations with the thyroid energy and a body design team in spirit. I totally know that the woo-woo work of the unseen lays and changes the foundations from which the physical manifests. I had more work to do.... and my children to tell.

Death and Spiritual Choices

Some might wonder about getting the information about pending "death" from some Spiritual Guides. I will tell you. Someone who knows that we are multi-dimensional beings. Someone who knows that we all exist in unseen fields of energy. Someone who understands that the "web of life" is not a word picture but words for what is truth. Someone who understands that the unseen fields of energy become/influence that tactile fields of energy of touch, taste, feel, see, hear that most call the "real" world.

Like Einstein suggested and has been proven, when you take matter/physical and speed up the components/atoms/quanta, it becomes energy/unseen or spiritual.

Because those of us who work within the energy fields/dimensions beyond the 1, 2 and 3 of what our physical sensing system can discern, dis-ease or other problems can be identified and therefore "healed" or changed.

Our innate abilities to work within all of the various fields of our live, Spiritual, Emotional, Mental and Physical has been "hidden in the shadows". The shadows of fear, of torture, of dis-counting, of domination, of over 300 years of witch hunts and burning times was enough to force us into obedience to outside voices.

Fortunately for me, I was called and trained as a radical mystic and so for over 30 years have been taught to re-member. With all of those years and experience under my belt, the first place to go with the news of my planned "death" was to my proven Spiritual team.

My ability is ask questions within sacred, protected space and to get accurate answers. So, this was the time ask.... Death? Why? When? What does that mean? Do I have any choice in this end result?

And so I took the time to be in quiet, sacred space to ask and listen. This is what I discovered about what was held in the energy fields beyond physical. I am sharing how this fits within my own personal belief structure of how life is designed.

1. In the plan that I made for my life with the advisers who worked with me as a "soul" before I was birthed into this body suit and this lifetime, I had placed the exit time for this year... my 72nd year.
2. The date was to be late November of 2013.
3. Yes, I did have the right, authority and power to override that exit date. (which is what I had done even before I spent time to understand this more clearly.)

Within 2 weeks of having set a new staff in the ground to say, "No! I am not going to leave this body, this life, this family, these friends, these projects, this adventure", I had two brain glitches. The happened a day apart from each other.

1. I was teaching a class. I went to say and word and my mouth would not make the shape for the word to happen. It took about three tries until the shape of my mouth was correct. Troubling.
2. The next day I was talking to another business on the phone. They asked for my address. My mind could not sort out is the number sequence was 345 or 543... I had to read the address off of an envelope. More troubling...

I immediately went to my Spiritual team and asked, "Is there some neurological problem that I need to be aware of?"

"No," they answered. "And make an appointment to see Dr. Wang."

Dr Wang is a Chinese medical doctor who was trained in China using long acupuncture needles for the brain. He worked with individuals who had suffered a stroke and had worked on my daughter Carolyn after her car accident. I thought that perhaps he would be able to "trigger on" whatever my brain may have been stuck with.

How wrong I was! I learned, again, that we usually do not know ahead of time the "whys" of life. 

A Woman Stands and the Worlds Re-Arrange...

A journey with Death....

Late February, 2013
A daughter has informed me that through her own personal spiritual guidance that my life would be ending soon and that she and the family needed to get prepared.

I am shocked. I have spent the past three weeks evaluating the condition of my body, my mind, my memory, my energy level and they have all passed with flying colors. I have been telling everyone that in every way, my physical body and mind are better at 71 and 1/2 years old than 10 years ago.

So... off I go to my Spiritual team. "Is this information true?" I ask.

"Oh yes," comes back the answer.

"Well," I reply, "death is not going to happen! My life, my body, my choice!"
This woman took a strong stand for herself!

You see, I was raised in a religious culture that used god to answer all of the difficult questions.
"Why did my dad die?"
                       "God needed his help."
"Why is my brother so sick?"
                       "God is testing him."
"Why does Grandpa act so mean?"
                       "Because God is waiting for  him to learn obedience." And on and on and on...

Well, I am no longer a child. I no longer buy the "god" thing. Over the years, I have developed my own credo, my own value system. It is based on personal experience by working with the concepts, the laws that say,

• "Ask and you shall receive."
• "As a man thinketh, so is he."
• "In the beginning was the Word.... my word."

I was ready to say NO to Death in a very big way.

For three days I applied all of the spiritual guidance, information, healing, transformation, and healing processes that I knew. Along the way I would ask, "Is the death plan gone?"

I continued the work until the answer from my Spiritual team came back, "yes".

That was the first phase of this journey that I didn't know would open up to me now.

What will happen next? Learning I am sure.

I'll share and take you with me on this walk from Death. Doors will have to be opened as I choose the possibility of a greater expression of Life in this physical body suit.

Blessings,